dissappointed is not the word.
but i have no idea what the word is.
to describe what i'm feeling.
confused?

i dont know what's going on now.
whats the aim of my life.
whats the point of living anymore.
it's painful to feel controlled.
and to feel like everything i do i'm gonna hurt someone.
i cant just be me anymore.
cuz someone's constantly watching the things i do.

happy.
will i?
or maybe thats what you think.
maybe i will.
but who knows.

emo.
thats what i am now.
lost myself somewhere.
why make me feel like i have to choose between friends and him.
i dont want to.
cuz that feeling sucks.

someone's doubting me time and again.
thinking of things i'll do behind his back.

and so it goes.
and you're the only one who knows.
HA.
think of someone.
and the song will come alive.
and i guess i was moved a little during practice today.

a pretty random post.
it's time to go shopping soon.

when you wish upon a star._____*

juls blogged at 9:19 PM;