i'm tired.
i swear i am.
tired of everything.
tired of putting on a mask.
hiding my emotions from everyone in school.

i'm so confused.
i see two sides of you.
first you said things about me.
then now you talk to me like nothing ever happened.
i dont know which one i'll get to see in the future..
the nice? or the insensitive you.

i have the right to choose my friends.
and i'm just close to them.
thats not flirting.
if i'm flirting with my close guy friends, and it makes you unhappy,
how do you think i feel when i see you talking all sweet and nice to your other not-so-close girlfriends.

stay strong.
thats what everyone tells me.
i tried my best to hold my tears.
or even put on a smile on my face.
but i guess.. deep down inside i am bleeding.
it hurts so bad. the things he say.
i couldnt hold back any longer.
tears just rolled down during the bus ride home.

i promise i wont cry too much my friend.
but just let me cry for tonight. ok?

and jo and fiona.. thanks for everything girls.

juls blogged at 9:38 PM;